This is somewhat of a followup to my earlier Koru post.

Anyhow, about a month ago, I realized I had lost my necklace. It was just a case of having set it down somewhere and I’d find it later. It was GONE.

Under normal circumstances, it stayed on while sleeping, showering, and even during more “intimate” moments. Unlike with my elekes, I could wear it all of the time. So when did I take it off? …and why?

So I thought about it a lot and did my best to trace my steps…

The only time I could recall taking it off was after work one day, while sitting outside and enjoying the sun. It’s rare for me to even attempt laying out in the sun. But I felt an urge to that day, so I went with it… I had my shirt off and was laying there, enjoying the warmth. It was good. I took off my glasses and the necklace and pretty much zoned out for a half hour or so. I have my glasses, so I obviously grabbed them. But what happened to my necklace?

No matter how much I tried, I couldn’t remember where I had left the necklace. I checked the pockets of my pants, shirts, etc. Nothing. I went back outside to (roughly) where I had been. Looked all around and couldn’t find it. Even tried raking up the leaves (it was a week or so after I had been out there), to no avail.

While I normally hate losing stuff, it’s not that big of a deal in itself. But there was something else. Something far more bizarre…

Remember how I had a fairly easy communication going with my muerto?

Normally, I could mentally “call for” my muerto and would get an immediate response. It was actually kind of annoying at times.

But, now, there was no response. It was sort of eerie.

So what happened?

I don’t think the muerto was tied to the necklace. I mean, it’s made of bone, but it’s cow bone. And something tells me that I wasn’t communicating with a bovine spirit

I began to think back to how I viewed the necklace, originally. I knew the design represented new life, growth, and strength. And at the end of the original posting, I mentioned that I felt like it was an inward spiral rather than an outward spiral. By that I mean, gathering up of energy/mojo/whatever into a more concentrated form.

With that in mind, there were a couple scenarios I could think of.

First scenario: The necklace helped me become aware of and/or attract the muerto and made it more easy to communicate with. Thus, when the necklace disappeared, the awareness/attraction did as well.

Second scenario: I was drawn to the necklace because of the muerto. Whether it had accomplished its goals or a change in myself or my life drove it away, the disappearance of the necklace was to signify the muerto was gone as well.

At the moment, I’m kind of leaning towards the first scenario. Mainly because when I concentrate on communicating with the muerto, I get the feeling that the response is just beyond me but is there.

I had considered buying another necklace. If for no other reason, I just liked the way it looked. The problem was, I didn’t have any way of figuring out where I had bought it from. As it said in the original post, I knew it was in a Facebook advertisement, but that was all. And, unfortunately, no matter how I tried to search for it, I never saw the ad again. I also felt that perhaps I shouldn’t get another one. Perhaps I’d get a different design.

I stopped worrying about replacing it or finding the old one.

And then it happened…

I was on Facebook and looked over at the ads on the side of the page…

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Holy cow! There it was! The same ad I had seen a year ago. I clicked on it, found the Koru design (not the one shown in the picture), and ordered one.

After wearing it a bit, will I return to the communication level I was at with my muerto again? Maybe. Maybe not. But at least I’ll look good while trying

Seriously, though, it all is somewhat interesting either way… I’ve always been interested in the cause/effect side of muertos.

There’s always talk of “dark” spirits who surround those who are depressed, mentally-unstable, etc. Where they depressed or whatever already and that’s what attracted the spirits? Or did the spirits influence the person into becoming depressed?

Hard to say.

And what about more neutral spirits, like mine? Are they attracted based on my personality, interests, etc. or are they shaping my personality and interests through their proximity to me?

In any case, I’m happy to have found a replacement necklace. Even if I decide to stop wearing it, I can at least put it with my other trinkets and whatnot with my boveda as a reminder to myself and where I’m at, where I’ve been, etc. spiritually.

[UPDATE: Got the replacement necklace. Almost immediately, things seemed back to normal. Very odd. My muerto doesn't really seem of much help in figuring out why that all worked out the way it did. Apparently, though, he was there... but the communication wasn't working out so well. Ah, well. I'm sure that'll be sorted out at a misa or something later down the line....]